Becoming in the In-Between

Lately I’ve been asking myself what does my becoming look like in this season?
Where am I still learning, softening, or unlearning patterns that no longer serve me?
Growth isn’t always pretty, but it’s real. And that’s where the becoming happens.

In my last post, The Shift, I talked about shedding, and truthfully, I’m still there. We all are.
This season feels different. The energy feels like a quiet rewiring. Next year is a 1 year, the year of renewal. A new earth. New beginnings. New opportunities.
And while I’m hopeful, I’ve also had to admit to myself: I’m not fully satisfied right now.

I’m grateful, deeply. For my job, my apartment, my family, my lessons. But I’m also unsatisfied. I’m sitting in that middle space where gratitude and restlessness coexist. And that’s hard to name without guilt.
Because sometimes our new energy doesn’t match our current reality. Sometimes your spirit evolves faster than your circumstances.

Energetically, I’ve already closed this chapter.
I can feel my spirit no longer tethered to certain spaces, habits, or people. But physically, I’m still here, still showing up for responsibilities that no longer feel aligned, still living in spaces I’ve outgrown, still preparing for what I know is coming.

I can feel a new season calling, one where I work on Becoming Herrss full time, where I’m paid what I deserve, where I’m surrounded by peace, privacy, and purpose. I love my sisters, but this season is calling for solitude. Space to breathe. Space to listen. Space to rebuild quietly.

Because becoming doesn’t always look like blooming, sometimes it looks like clearing.
Sometimes it’s pruning back the parts of you that survived so the parts that are meant to live can finally grow.

So if you’re feeling that tension too, grateful but unsatisfied, grounded but ready, you’re not behind.
You’re right on time. You’re in the sacred in-between.
And this? This is the part where you don’t rush the becoming, you let it reveal you.